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breathing space ~ March 16, 2003 - 3:57 p.m. so, there's this disease... I have to admit, I'm a little worried. about this contagious and dangerous pneumonia they've discovered. it's spreading, it's not responding to treatment, and I'm sitting right in the middle of it. cases reported in Hong Kong, Singapore, Thailand, Vietnam... No word on Lao yet, but I can't help but think that it's only a matter of time. hygiene is not at its best in this corner of the world. Thailand is right across the mekong. you can see it from here. so yes, I'm a little worried. I figure all I can do is to take the best care of myself that I can. keep one eye on the news to see how things are developing. I don't know that I've ever felt this vulnerable to a disease before. I mean, people are dying of this thing, and they haven't figured out how to treat it. no one who's gotten sick has gotten better yet. they don't even know whether it's a virus or a bacteria. enough already. in other news, I'm moving into that house on the mekong at the end of the month. I'm looking forward to it. I'm also feeling pretty intensely torn about the choices I have to make. directions. TravelingEd wants to send me to south america for 10 weeks this fall. you know me, I'm all about a new adventure. except that there's some part of me that just wants to stay here for a while. settle in, make a nice home for myself, enjoy my job and my life, and actually get halfway fluent in lao. and the school is pushing me to extend my contract until at least august 8th, when summer school ends. the only trouble with that is that it means missing firedance. that's hard, that's very hard. firedance is much more than just a festival, just a gathering. it's a space for healing and renewal, rest and regeneration, and reconnection with one of my most unconditionally loving human families. hard. I'm going to sit with this decision for a while. with all of these decisions. staying, going, where and for how long. too much to decide. for right now, I just need to be here.
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