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all of this and everything... ~ November 22, 2002 - 2:20 a.m. still trying to land... tonight I left jennifer's house for the first time since I got back to the country. sweet patrick came to get me, and we went for dessert at the saturn, a walk up pacific avenue. neither of us knows where we are with the other. I, for one, don't know where I am with anything. I'm in a waiting place right now. waiting for it all to unfold. it feels like something big is coming, but I don't know what. he is busy with school and making bio-diesel and everything else he does to stimulate heart, mind, and spirit. I am busy trying to figure out how to live my life. we met in the middle somewhere to share stories and eat sweets. to walk and talk. friends for now, we're taking it as it comes. and today a tip from an angel landed me a cheap, cheap train(!) ticket back to milwaukee for christmas. so, home for the holidays will really happen, I'll be there to enjoy watching my family open gifts from the other side of the world, that sweet weight in my pack carried from that shore to this. I love the holidays, I do. I just ignore the commercialism, the ticky-tack. I go to thanksgiving with my blue sun cafe extended family, share a fabulous vegan spread, love and music and laughter... I find my way back to a city I can't stand filled with people I love at the end of december. I wrestle with my nephews, cuddle with the cats, share smoke with my sister and visit the snow I gratefully fled five years ago. and was it yesterday? that I checked the website for the asylum street spankers, and found out they'll be here in less than a month, just in time to see me off before I climb on the amtrak and head into family flashback land. and amma's in town... going up to oakland to get my hug this weekend. all of this, and a world filled with possibilities, a raw, open moment where anything can happen. life is beautiful... I love the holidays, I do.
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