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a bit of a mess, with moments of grace... ~ June 14, 2003 - 10:17 p.m. I'm a mess, it's true. but really okay, at the heart of things. just. a mess. I've got another cold, if you can believe that. never been so sick so often in my life as I have been in lao. I keep reminding myself that everyone tells me that's quite normal for westerners coming to lao for the first time. and there's these weird welts that have started appearing randomly on my body. four so far. like mosquito bites, but *not*. they look like an allergic reaction, but I don't know what to. my asian laundry detergent maybe, I don't know. there's a lot more chemicals in my life right now than a formerly vegan organic girl is used to. speaking of which, I picked up a shampoo bottle in a store the other day to read the label, because it was called "organics", and I was curious to see if there was anything organic in it. there were a couple of essential oils, last on the list of ingredients. a bit higher on the list was formaldehyde. it's been a hell of a week. last friday, I found out that the guy I was dating was lying all over the place, about the girlfriend he wasn't supposed to have anymore. tuesday my kitten died. and by thursday I had realized that my sweet vietnamese boy was not coming to visit after all. this, of course, is conjecture-- seeing as how I haven't heard word one from SVB since the e-mail that said he'd be here on the 10th, 11th or 12th. three separate e-mails asking him to contact me, to no avail. either he hates me, or he's dead in a ditch somewhere. or something. who the hell knows. I think it was thursday night I had the nightmare. and friday I came down with the cold. yep, hell of a week. moments of grace, though. I got my first sin, the traditional lao skirt. it's a brilliant purple, and it's so gorgeous I can't take my eyes off it, even while I'm wearing it. I got a lot of attention at school yesterday, in my sin. it's everyday business wear for lao women, beautiful and yet practical. a wraparound skirt without the slit to blow open in the breeze. I love it. and because I had it made by a tailor ($4 for the cloth, $6 for the tailoring), it fits me just so. and then also yesterday, my landlady's sweet 12-year-old son gave me a kitten. he knew how much I missed my nuggin. it was a gift I didn't feel like I could refuse, in spite of the fact that I wasn't sure if I was ready to try again so soon. but, I'm so glad to have this new little guy in the house. he's bigger than nuggin, and stronger, with a fat little belly. I think he was nursed long enough, this one. he loves to play. I think I may have to get him a friend, so he's got someone to chase and wrestle with while I'm at work. haven't found the right name for this little guy yet. he's got the cutest face, with these giant brown eyes. he's not tupelo honey, but he's a sweet little guy in his own way. and the school year is nearly done. exams on monday and tuesday. then it's just grading, and then holiday until summer school starts on july 1st. I still haven't decided where I'm going on holiday, if anywhere... I have so little energy right now, part of me just wants to lie around in bed for a week. we'll see.
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