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the right buddha ~ February 26, 2002 - 11:30 p.m. I got a buddha for my altar today. I know, it's ridiculous that I didn't have one already, considering how long buddhism has been a part of my life. I guess it needed to become -central- in my life. and I've been waiting for the right buddha to come along. my mom sent me some money for my birthday, so it seemed like a good time to go out and find my buddha. I went to gateways first, the new-agey store downtown... and discovered that they're no longer there. I don't know when that happened, or if they've just moved or gone under altogether. I hope they've just moved. they were pretty cool. so I went to a store called east meets west on pacific avenue, where I've seen cool wooden buddhas before. and you know what? buddhas were 20% off. still and all, I couldn't afford the one I wanted, a really nice carved wooden buddha. it really just seemed like the right buddha. so I took him up to the guy at the counter, and asked if there was any chance he could make me an extra special deal on a buddha. I told him I had thirty-six dollars. I told him I'd been looking for the right buddha, and that this one seemed to be it. he sold it to me for $35.05. I walked home with a smile on my face. I reconfigured my altar, set up offerings around my new buddha. it's so beautiful. when my altar was set, I sat down for a session of meditation, and you know what? I sat better than I have in a long time. it almost felt like having a teacher there with me, sitting across from me. it just filled me up with a sense of well-being. like ah, so this is what I've been missing... I sat for a long time, enjoying the energy of my little altar corner. when ozone came home, we replayed one of the conversations we keep having, and I stayed patient. stayed gentle. kept in touch with my buddha nature. he's fallen asleep on the couch now. I'm thinking about going out and seeing if I can find moontribe. it's been too long. the last time I tried to go, things didn't work out. but I have the feeling that tonight, it would. and that it would be good for me. we'll see. otherwise, maybe I'll just hang out here like I usually do, goofing around on the computer and every so often going in to the bedroom to see how beautiful my altar is. it is. just so beautiful.
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