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fragile ~ may 14, 2001 - 4:42 p.m. I'm feeling a bit fragile lately, and I'm trying to be kind to myself. remember that it's okay to be fragile. my emotional state's a bit tender. I want to see ever. I haven't heard from him in about a week, and it doesn't seem like that's a very long time, except in my current state where I badly want to be held all the time and I'm not getting it, it feels like a very long-ass time. I did get to spend time with liam last night though, and that was really good. liam. once upon a time he was the love of my life. just about exactly a year ago, he broke my heart into a billion pieces. it's all good... my heart badly needed to be broken at the time. we're still really close. we sat and talked at the jahva house until they closed, and then headed over to kiva and soaked and talked until they closed, and then headed over to the saturn cafe and ate and talked until we were both ready to call it a night. he's one of those good friends I'm deeply grateful to have in my life. I'm also deeply glad that I'm not in love with him anymore. we make much better friends than we did partners. then today ariana called, and we talked for a long time about these boys we're wild about... hers is leaving the country for three months in a few days. mine feels like he might as well be in another country. it's so beautiful to have a lover who you can talk about other lovers to. she and I are more like best friends with loverly tendencies. today's my sister's birthday. I almost forgot, I'll have to call her when I get off the machine. today is also the day I'm finally moving on from pat and stacie's house. tonight I'm going to see hanuman at henflings, which should be wild fun and much barefoot dancing with reckless abandon, and then I'm going to spend the night up at meredith's place, a cabin on a beautiful acreage outside of boulder creek. I may stay up there for a bit in june, we'll see. next week I'll be working up at the strawberry music festival, so I'm not making much in the way of hard plans until after that. fragile, yes... be nice to me, okay?
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