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hungry girl... ~ May 17, 2003 - 9:45 p.m. I just did something I really probably shouldn'ta... I spent something like an hour standing under an overhang in the rain, talking to a man I've been very attracted to pretty much ever since I came to lao. why is this a bad thing? just because. I have this feeling that it's not a good idea. I don't know why. well, there's the fact that he has a girlfriend, which rules him out for now anyway. but tonight he told me that he thinks she's looking around for something better, that he's preparing his heart for her to leave. I don't have a bad feeling about him. he doesn't make my neck hurt. I think he's a good guy. and I realized tonight that he and I have something I haven't found too much of yet in lao: chemistry. my body responds to this man's presence, oh yes it does. and I like talking to him. he thinks about things. he has enough english to talk about real stuff with me. my lao is getting better and better. why do I think this is such a bad idea? it's nothing I can put my finger on. anyway, like I said, he's got a girlfriend for now. maybe when they break up, I'll have to make a real choice. for now I can just mull it over. or something. and look forward to my sweet vietnamese boy coming to see me in june. but right now, I'm hungry as all hell, and need to get myself out to a restaurant before they close. hungry. yes.
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