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limbo ~ January 22, 2002 - 1:33 a.m. I didn't go to dance jam tonight. instead, me and ozone went to a double feature at the little art theatre around the corner. I didn't know anyone did double features anymore. it made me happy. we saw "mulholland drive", the new david lynch, which was very david lynch and which I liked, and then "the man who wasn't there", which was film noir-y and I liked it, but not as much as the first one. and every day ozone learns more about himself and life and the world, and every day our relationship gets better, and every day I wonder what happens if, after all the change and everything, if I'm still not happy? what then? then, I guess I leave, I find a new direction. it's easy but it's not. and the trick is not leaving before it's time. and who knows what's really going to happen. maybe so much will change that I'll really be happy and stop obsessing about leaving. and maybe getting the hell out of san jose will make as much of a difference as I think it might. the job continues to not happen. it also continues to be a possibility. management is creating difficulties in the Hiring of Ozone. and so in the meantime, we wait in san jose limbo to see what's going to happen. vajrapani is hiring an office assistant. I wonder if I should apply. I'm thinking about it pretty hard. I feel like I need to be doing something. really, I need to be writing. and I'm not. and that's what it really comes down to. I feel like when I start writing again, it's all going to make a lot more sense.
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