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all a bit off-kilter... ~ April 28, 2008 - 1:08 a.m. well, I'm no longer living in the dark place, but it's hard to say where I'm at, really. I'm just all over the place. today seems like it was a good day. good things happened. I went to look at the studio I'm hoping to rent... I really like it, and I'd love to live there, but it has enough drawbacks that I won't be heartbroken if I don't get it. and so, feeling pretty even-keeled. I also went for a hot tub soak with a guy I once did some modeling for, years and years ago... the only young and cute guy I ever did any modeling for. he found me on myspace, and wanted to discuss a possible modeling gig. santa cruz is the only place I know of where it's perfectly natural to get naked and discuss business in a hot tub. and the gig sounds like a lot of fun. a cd cover, for the reggae band he plays in, they'd paint me up as a mermaid and pay me pretty well. so, something to the good. I found myself feeling a little flirty with the guy, too, which surprised me. nothing intense, he's just cute and I feel comfortable. so we were saying goodbye, and I found myself saying "and hey, if you happen to be in santa cruz and want to hang out, give me a call..." and he lit up a little, said "I'd totally be down for that," and left me feeling like maybe I do have some desireable qualities after all. so that was nice. it was sunny today, and hot. my kind of day. and nice things happened. but it just kind of felt like I was watching it all from about ten miles out. all just a bit off-kilter. like this diary entry. I'm going back to work tomorrow. I'm thinking that's a good thing.
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