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one thing, deeply ~ March 29, 2003 - 6:27 p.m. I've been crazy busy the last few days... we give big bi-monthly exams at school, and this was my first exam week. for me it was plagued by all kinds of computer problems and last-minute crises, but it all worked out. the next one will be easier, I think. amazing how much better my organizational skills are getting, just because they have to. it feels like I'm growing up here, somehow. you really have to be the grownup when 15 kids are depending on you for their education. so I've made my big decision, and told all the people who need to know, so now I can finally tell you: I've decided to stay in lao for another year. it's big, it's huge, but it's just the right thing for me at this point. I've been traveling for something like years now, and it's been amazing. but I'm in a place now where I'm really craving the ability to do one thing, deeply. and this thing that I'm doing, I love. absolutely. it means I get to have a home, a real home, for a good long stretch of time. in a place that feels good to me. in a job that I love, in which I am growing and learning tremendously. it means I get to grow in all the ways that stability inspires. maybe I'll finally finish the book I started writing last year. learn to play guitar. learn a martial art. not only that, I'm feeling pretty certain that at the rate I'm learning, I'll be fluent in lao by the time I leave. fluent. in another language. what a gift. I'll be able to save money, so I won't go home dirt broke for a change. I'll still be able to travel during school holidays, and I'm surrounded by fascinating countries. it just feels like the right thing. as soon as the decision was made, my heart just filled with light. one thing, deeply. oh yes, life is beautiful. I'm moving into the house on the mekong on monday. I really can't wait to settle in and build myself a nest. a warm center from which to move. that's what lao is for me right now. a warm center. the heart of my life. I am learning so much. one thing, deeply. yes.
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