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one big OW (or a purification of sorts...) ~ February 14, 2003 - 8:02 p.m. I'm choosing to look at it as a purification. maybe this explains it. anyway, my body is wacked. tuesday night, I got sick as a dog. hard to tell what it was at that point. it was my last day of caffeine, cleaning out in preparation for my reiki attunements this weekend, so I had a splitting withdrawal headache. and then I got sick to my stomach, which I put down to the fact that I ate a hard-boiled egg at lunch, and didn't realize until afterwards that it had been marinated in meat juices. the body doesn't handle meat so well after 11 years or so away. but I had a fever too, achy all over. and it was the first day of my moon, so I was crampy too. delightful combination, eh? so tuesday night was just miserable. fever craziness, with kindergarten songs running through my head. on and off the toilet all night. just. miserable. I still tried to go to school on wednesday, though. it felt important-- I was supposed to observe teacher roy's fourth grade class, since he's found a better contract and will be leaving on monday. which makes me the new fourth grade teacher. ahh, the life of the itinerant english teacher. hopefully I get to hold on to this class for the rest of the year. but, so, I tried to go. and wound up needing to be driven home at lunchtime. spent the rest of wednesday and thursday in bed (and in the bathroom). just awful. couldn't practice yoga, couldn't eat anything more complicated than rice porridge. thursday afternoon, I woke up drenched in sweat and knew that my fever was breaking. it all began to get better from there. it's kinda scary coming down sick in a place like this, you know? you keep running down the list of symptoms for malaria, dengue fever, hepatitis, typhus... I've begun to seriously consider adding to my vaccinations when I get my hep A boosted in march. so today I was able to go to school and really go through everything with teacher roy. I feel like I have half a clue how to approach monday. and I am feeling tremendously better, but there are still issues. like this insane aching pain running up and down the long muscles in the sides of my thighs. I've had this before, usually connected to my moon in some mysterious way, so I'm assuming that's what it is this time. it's horrible, though. makes it hard to sit still, to get comfortable in any position. walking makes it feel a little better. ibuprofen helps, but I'm not wild about taking pills. not to mention my stomach. which is not happy that I had the gall to try feeding it vegetables and tofu tonight, after two and a half days of rice porridge. what am I supposed to do with this? it wants to know. burning, churning. oh, and my left eye has turned itchy and tender, the lid a little swollen. I'm trying not to even entertain the word conjunctivitis, and absolutely positively not entertain the thought that it could be something worse. so I still hurt. so I'm choosing to look at it as a purification. a clearing out, before my reiki attunements this weekend. 'cause if I don't think about it positively, I just feel like one big OW.
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