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yearning ~ July 29, 2004 - 1:44 a.m. my heart's been pretty tender lately... i'm on my moon, so there's that, but it seems like more than that, too. i was listening to public radio while i was in the shower, and they were describing what they've been able to piece together of what happened on board that plane that went down in pennsylvania on 9/11. the one that the passengers took back from the hijackers. and it hit me, it finally hit me. i stood there sobbing in the shower, finally able to feel 9/11 after three years. i cried again, yesterday, watching the video of baracka bama's speech at the dnc. hot damn. there's some voices in this country that give me some hope. and firedance is coming, coming soon, and i get to play with so many of my dear ones in the mountains. my heart is tender, but it's not in a bad way. i'm a little fragile, yes, but feeling is good. i'm yearning a bit, i think, for all the possibilities i wish for. it feels as if there are beautiful things waiting just around the corner. i just don't know what they're waiting for. action on my part, most likely. and things are happening in my life, but it all seems to happen in slow motion, bits and pieces, and i want it all to happen now. i am learning patience. i am learning to sit with quiet. but i still want so much.
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